I just celebrated my one month bloggiversary. Yup, I’ve officially been blogging for one month so I drank a frou- frou coffee and congratulated myself on doing it. Taking the leap and hitting publish. Because sometimes you find something you feel you were made for and it fits. I am blessed to have discovered a few things that drive me and make me feel like I’m in my element.
When I was thriving in my element in my twenties, I was going to school for a degree in Nutrition Science with a minor in Exercise Physiology. I was made for college. I excelled at everything I did. I had a voracious appetite for learning and a high aptitude in all of my classes. I juggled a two-year old, a body image obsession, and a 26 credit course load while maintaining a 4.0 and tutoring on the side. And I was good at it.
But my walk with God was minimal those years. I fought hard against His will. I wanted my own glory to the detriment of my spirit. I was falling into sin and my heart was far from Him. Operating in your element may guarantee success in this life but not necessarily in your relationship with God.
The conviction crushed hard when I realized that I was failing my son in teaching him about the Lord (how could I teach what I wasn’t living) and I had failed my husband in being a faithful wife. My heart was somewhere else entirely. Our family was falling apart. God was once again requiring me to give up my identity. The very things I believed gave me value. I sacrificed them on the altar of repentance and committed to pursue Him. And God began to heal.
And even in the midst of that healing as God drew me closer and I began to see His grace, I still mourned the loss of me. I hadn’t yet realized that in that loss, He would be made great. That the decrease in me, makes room for Him.
It was years before God started revealing how my giftings, passions, and desires would be given back to me. I had to fully release them first. Not just for myself but for His glory. As the old catechism states, “Mans chief end is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever.”
We glorify Him best when we allow Him to use us just how He made us. He is the father of all inspiration and creativity.
It’s taken me years to realize my identity is hidden in Him. I struggle daily ( moment by moment, really) with this.
But I see how my thick skin has helped me be able to speak the truth to people in my life even when it’s awkward and the glaring visibility of my weaknesses softens the blow because we are all crushed under our flesh if not for His grace.
But I see how my love of learning has inspired me to teach my children and others.
I see how my inquisitive nature lets me discover new things and worship in awe that He made it all for His glory, and stand in wonder that we benefit as heirs. I honestly find myself worshiping on Pinterest, not because the beautiful things people make but at the astounding creativity and diversity that is our God. And why shouldn’t we? The whole earth is filled with His glory. This is why we can scratch out gratitude lists of little fragments of glory dropped down from our maker and placed where only trained eyes can see.
I see how the trials and suffering earlier in my life allow me a voice of empathy now. I see how His hand is at work always. I see how this was His perfect timing. As I click away on my keyboard, I feel His pleasure and I am truly enjoying Him. I can fully embrace how God made me.
What is your element? How did God make you? How do we glorify God with our whole self? Leave me a note in the comments telling me what your element is and how you use it for God’s glory. I love to see how different everyone is and how we all fit together in this body.
If you struggle thinking you don’t have any special talents or giftings, know this. Everyone is created in the image of God, therefore everyone has intrinsic value purposed for Him. More on that topic later…