On Fridays we write with gusto, unselfconscious and flat out. You know the drill.
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. Please visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments.
OK, are you ready? Give me your best five minutes on:
I am tentative, thoughtful, thinking in steps and lists. My pros and cons marching neatly down the paper to form what should or should not be. And then in complete contrast, I am overwhelmingly emotional. Impulsive and passionate. Prone to depth of feeling that causes my heart to soar and crash at a moments notice.
Disorganized, messy, flustered but with labels and systems and bins for things. Really, it’s quite exhausting to be me. And that’s ok, because that is how God made me, I feel and I analyze and I never know which will win, my rational thought or my emotions.
In my mind and emotions, I think I don’t really crave community because my introverted side is so prevalent but I know that in spite of my tendency to avoid interaction, I am most fulfilled when walking among friends.
I need my mom to listen to the height of my mania and the lows of my depression without judging me.
I need my sisters in law. One who is practical and quite likely to have pros and con lists herself and who can make me see things clearly when my emotions are out of control. And the other who is vivacious and fun-loving, who makes me laugh and paints my toes and helps me feel, when I don’t want to do anything at all.
I have a friend who God has blessed me with recently, who stays up till the wee hours of the morning chatting life with me, who takes my children for me and is always offering help and encouragement to my flustered, overwhelmed side.
I have friends who I rarely talk to but when we connect it’s as though no time has passed.
I have new blogging friends who I’ve only ever known as a thumbnail picture on a screen., but who have blessed me with wisdom, grace, and inspiration. Who have formed a community to help each other and walk together as we learn and grow.
I have a budding community forming in new friendships bridged on tentative steps forward and hands wide open.
And I embrace it all. Even if I’d rather be in bed with a good book.
What does community look like in your life?