Write for 5 minutes flat-no editing, no overthinking, no backtracking.
This weeks word is: Ache
How appropriate. This week’s word, ache. And ache I do. In my wounded lungs, invaded by this pneumonia. In the night sweats and the chills that torment my sleep. In the violent rejection of everything introduced to my stomach. My flesh writhes in the pain of it all.
And this is so familiar. This suffering flesh.
I know it well
I have always been afflicted in my flesh. In my very cells and marrow.
Maybe it is a tool in the hands of a gentle master.
How can that be? That a loving God would inflict pain and sickness on his dear child? If I believe he’s sovereign I have to admit that there can be no alternative. He inflicts or allows but anyway you want to look at it, He is in control of each synapse, each nerve, each cell.
Maybe He’s doing something I don’t see.
Maybe in me, maybe in others. He certainly has my attention as I pray through the night for relief.
Maybe, I can be content to suffer because I’ve learned many lessons this way and maybe if I keep my heart open, I’ll learn something this time too.
Maybe, I’ll learn nothing, but just be reminded that our God is a good God in the friends He’s provided who are graciously bringing meals, in the lifted prayers on my behalf, in the well wishes of my readers, and in His providence, whether we can see it or not.
God works all things, even in the ache, especially in the ache.
So although, I am miserable, I know the ache is not forever, for I also serve The One Who Heals.
OK, now click on the link to The Gypsy Mama and share some blog love with the other amazing bloggers who are sharing their 5 minutes with you.
God gives grace for each moment, specially through the pain. Through each trial He teaches us something. I’m learning to be patient. Hope you feel better soon
Sue recently posted..Five Minute Friday: Ache
Thanks Sue, me too.
Makes me sad that your so sick. I love your perspective; that God is in control and your pain is short term. I’ll be praying for a swift recovery for you. Enjoyed meeting you at Blissdom. Thank goodness your illness held off until after Nashville. Now, that’s something to be thankful for!
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Ellen, I enjoyed meeting you too and I totally agree. If this had happened in Nashville, I would’ve been in huge trouble trying to find a hospital and without my nebulizer etc. I can’t imagine trying to fly across the country as sick as I am. God is good even when it feels hard.
Alia. Five Minutes? Ill? I’m quitting right now.
Simply True.
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Don’t quit. I like having you around.
Hi Alia,
I’ve been lurking a bit around your blog. I’m not sure if I’ve posted or not, but I wanted you to know that I love your blog. And I love your 5 minute dealies. I keep thinking, “I want to do that too!” But then life happens and it’s next week already and I’m reading your next one. So apparently I need a little more organization in my life! Anyway, just wanted to say hi!
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Janice, Thanks for delurking, I was able to check out your site too, now. I totally relate to that last post. Muti-multitasking is the bane of most mothers existence. Mine for sure. And the five minute Fridays are inspired by The Gypsy Mama who has a link up each week. It’s the perfect way to end the week. 5 minutes of free writing, no looking for a picture, or editing, or formatting. Bliss for someone who just wants to write.
Alia, I am praying for complete healing in your body. Bless you. And yes thank God this didn’t happen on your trip many thousands of miles away from home. You are a blessing to all. Love you, Aunt Julie
Thanks Aunt Julie, Love you too.